Push over Mom

I've realized something, I'm a push over mom. I'm trying not to be, but that little boy of mine has me wrapped around his finger. Take our mornings for example, he wants to stay home with me. He keeps whining about it and there are times when I'm so tempted to say the heck with work, I'm taking a mental health day and staying home with my little guy. Of course, then I remember I have bills to pay and a child to feed and being the responsible adult/parent wins. There are times when I want that responsible adult/parent to go on vacation.

On the other hand, I think I'm making progress with my budget. It's only been a year that I've been working on it, I'm a little slow with some things. oopppssss.... I guess it's better late than never. At least, that is my story and I'm sticking to it.

Later!

Life, take 2

I've looked over my last blog entry and boy, was it a little depressing. However, there are times when that is exactly how I feel and I'm trying not to apologize for my feelings any more. I've started reading several blogs/pages and they all say the same thing, you need to be honest with yourself. Sometimes, I just put a smile on my face and pretend everything is ok, because that is easier than dealing with the issues. But, that is not a realistic way to go through life.

Anyway, on a lighter note, we had a birthday party for Drew this past Friday and boy, was it a hoot. That little guy is something, let me tell you. I am so blessed to have him in my life and to have the opportunity to be a parent. It's amazing. Of course, I know my mother is up in heaven laughing hysterically at the things I'm going through with Drew. She always said revenge would be grandkids. :-)

Life....

Sometimes, I just need to cry. You know. I have so many people telling me that I'm doing such a great job, that Drew is doing great and that everything is going to be ok. Well, you know what, there are times when I don't think I'm doing a great job and when all I want to do is crawl in a hole and cry my eyes out. I want to cry so hard and for so long that it makes me sick. Just get it out and then start over.

Being a single parent is like running an obstacle course. You never know what is coming up next.

Conversations.....

You know, if someone was eavesdropping on my conversations with Drew, one of two things would happen.....1) wonder what the heck was going on.... or 2) laugh so hard they would miss the rest of the conversation.

Take, for example, our conversation last night, while I was trying to get him in the tub....

Me: Drew, you need to get in the tub.
Drew: Wait, mommy, I need to go potty. I've gots lots of poop that needs to come out.
Me: Oh, you do?
Drew: Yes, I've been eating and eating and the poop has gone all through my body getting all the rest of the poop and now it needs to come out. But, why do I pee when I'm trying to poop??

Then we're off and running on peeing.

Life is never dull.

Trying to help....

Ok, I'm one year into the Single Momville and I have to tell you, it's been a journey. I've been reading and reading, trying to find ideas/ways in which to help Drew and myself. I'm also working really hard at getting my finances under control and let me tell you, that is a learning process. I've discovered that I'm very much like a little child in that I hate telling myself no. I know I need to do it, so I'm working on it. I have to tell Drew no, so it's only right that I tell myself no as well. Anyway, again, it's been a journey. ;-)

That was a little segment into what I have been thinking about a lot lately and that is helping others. I'm really into following tweets and blogs and CNN got me hooked onto http://www.shaykelley.com/ She is an amazing woman and is traveling to all 50 states to collect canned goods for the homeless. She posts stories and pictures on her blog, tweeter and facebook and I have to tell you, it's an eye opening experience. She started this journey after she lost her job and her house. Instead of feeling sorry for herself, she decided to do something to help others. I'm realizing that I need to do something like that as well. God never gives us something that we can't handle (although, sometimes I think He has more faith in me than I do!) and one way to deal with all the emotions of change is to help others. So, I'm looking around trying to find out what I can do and the one thing that is really calling my attention right now is the oil spill. I'm looking into volunteer opportunities in/around Galveston so that I can go one weekend and help out. Even thinking about that gets your mind off your own problems.

Well, that is my rant for now. I'm going to try to be better about updating my blog.

Take care!
Paulette