Today is Christmas. It is such an awesome and amazing day, although, this year, it does feel a little different.
Drew is in Montana with his daddy and he left yesterday morning. We had our Christmas early and we've had a blast at my brother's house with the family. I know Drew is having a blast in Montana with all his cousins, grandparents, aunts, uncles and all the SNOW!!
Yesterday, I couldn't stop thinking about how this was going to be my first Christmas without Drew. I know it's not going to be the last and honestly, I know it is a day that we can celebrate anytime, but it is still different. My family (my brother, sis-in-law, nephews, dad, and two aunts) started taking pictures last night before we went to church. I didn't feel right about getting in the family picture since Drew wasn't here. I know I'm going to be seeing him in 14 days, but I still didn't want to get in that picture. I know that was probably crazy and I know I will probably change my mind in the future, but yesterday, it just didn't feel right to me.
Last night as I was trying to go to sleep, it dawned on me how fortunate I am. Drew is not oversees, he isn't in harms way defending our freedom, he is simply with his daddy and his cousins. I thought about all the mom's whose children are serving our country, serving on a mission trip or even those who have children already in heaven. I thought, how do they deal with Christmas? In fact, how do they handle day to day life? It made me realize that I was feeling sorry for myself and I was forgetting all that I had to be thankful for.
So, to all of you , I'm wishing you a very Blessed Christmas and a wonderful New Year.